PyNiC's Polaris...

My memorable experience as a blogger

2010-08-29T05:48:00.001-07:00

Maybe I seldom blog, but I have actually gained a lot from blogging. There are times we couldn't share our feelings and thoughts with others face-to-face. Instead, blogging is a way for me to say my thoughts and feelings out loud.

I am a quiet and shy person. Face-to-face makes me nervous and scared. I won't be able to say everything that I wanted to as I can't express well through talking.

Through blogging, I do get to know others as well. I never know that there are contests held through blogs until one day my friend told me and that was how I am here now.haha...The people that I know through my blogs are such good people. Some give me the courage to go on with my life bravely, Others might have bashed me but I tried to take their criticisms with a clear mind and improve myself.

I do indeed love blogging!

This is my official entry for Red's 1st Blogversary Contest.

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2010-08-29T05:38:00.000-07:00

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Today

2010-06-05T00:55:00.000-07:00

Saturday, Sunny - It's so sunny outside, but inside I am cold. I used to love to blog. Almost about anything that happened in life. Lately, after working actually, I seldom blog now. Too many things to be done yet so little time. Since it's holiday today, I shall blog awhile.

I should be at somewhere now. Someplace at this moment. I guess it's about the signing for TVXQ. I didn't go. Didn't even plan to go. Probably didn't find the purpose to do so?

As much as I love them and want them to be together, a part of me doesn't want them to be together. What matters most is that they are happy, which whatever decision they made. Even if they are together but unhappy, it's meaningless...

My life...

2010-05-22T03:33:00.000-07:00

Well well well...it's been awhile since I am writing. To have actually writing out my feelings. I guess I am so used to bottle my feelings up that I am convinced I am okay. Actually...I am not. I am definitely not okay.

Everything that happened to me has been a nightmare. A nightmare that I won't be able to wake up from. My life is so monotonous...everyday, I am like a hamster. Running round and round the wheel, trying to search for happiness. It's a cycle which never ends. A nightmare that never ends. A meaningless life.

I have convinced myself that tomorrow will come, everything will be better, my life will be more colourful. Instead, I am still in black, white and grey world. So dull, so bored, so lifeless...so dead...Will I die with my life wasting away like this?

Work hard, work smart, work work work...done all that and been doing that. Life...sometimes, I get a speck of hope but it becomes gloomy again. Life...I thought I saw a sun behind the clouds, instead it continues to rain.
Life...I have seen flowerbuds...but never been able to blossom. Life...Is my life going to just waste like this?

I am now working hard, striving, struggling to get the hold of the ray of hope. Even if it's just a little light, I am going to keep it in my heart, to hope that day of happiness to arrive soon. Never give up. Always keep the faith. Sooner or later, it will come eventually. For now, I keep praying...I pray...

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2010-05-16T01:25:00.000-07:00

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Thank you, Sherry!!!

2010-03-24T05:17:00.000-07:00

Today is a happy day for me after all! I got the package from Sherry! Yay!!! My ribbon necklace (key with star) and also my double star!!! Woohoo!!! Can't help but feeling happy right now!

P/S: Sorry didn't post photos for it =P My bluetooth's gone and I don't have cable for my phone >___<

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2010-03-16T05:49:00.000-07:00

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2010-03-16T05:45:00.000-07:00

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Stressed

2010-02-20T08:14:00.000-08:00

Too many things to say...
Too little time to do it...

Working life is not what you think...I am now wishing for a good job to come! gah!!!

A post to Grandma...

2010-01-25T15:29:00.000-08:00

I was going to cry
My tears will not stop falling
But then I realized
I took you for granted once again
While my tears linger in my eyes
I rethink of what we have done
Of the memories we have gone through
You doted on me once
Helping me and love me as I was
But I could only watch
When it was your turn
Getting harsh words from people
I found that I was helpless
Then and now
By the time I can stand on my own
I never look back
Never thought of you much
Suddenly you fell down one day
That's when I realize
How fragile you have become
I have tried my best
To spend time with you
Hoping you could once more
Standing up like before
You fell again...this time to eternally...
My tears finally drop
But there's nothing I can do
But to wish you happy in heaven
Goodbye, Grandma
You will be missed by me...

So....

2010-01-23T08:54:00.000-08:00

I believe the world is now dominated by Hallyu Wave. And the one group that is extremely popular is of course, TVfXQ aka Dong Bang Shin Ki (known in South Korea) or Tohoshinki (known in Japan). Not only that they have the looks, they indeed do have talents in singing, dancing and acting. Even their fanclub, Cassiopeia was said to be in Guinness World Record and that's just their official members that has joined in the fanclub. Not to mention the Bigeast and also the fans around the globe.

TVfXQ's songs were played in radio stations and television broadcast in South America's countries. They also have attended the Hollywood Bowl. There are always their fans in each part of this world.

Their songs have left a big impact on us, the fans. We cry, we smile and our sadness are healed as we listened to their songs. They may not be the best in your perspectives but they are always the best in our eyes. Please do take a look on them, listen to their songs and see their music videos. You will never know unless you try to see it.

Posted by PyNiC (Malaysia) | January 23, 2010 8:49 AM

Read more: http://ellen.warnerbros.com/2010/01/your_international_music_suggestions_0121.php#pac#ixzz0dSHxWdyP

P/S: so i have posted my opinion up...^^;;; hope she will notice about it?

Asexual...

2010-01-11T18:38:00.000-08:00

I found this article that has made me so interested in it...anyone who is asexual?

Read this people!

http://www.wikihow.com/Understand-Asexual-People

Friendship...

2010-01-11T05:46:00.000-08:00

Passes by a person in your whole life is normal but passes by the same person twice, you are meant to be friends. Fate twisted our life yet life is in our own hands. Meeting the same person twice...if you ignore that person, you might lost him forever. Cherish your friendship. Cherish every single memories together, all the tears shed and all the laughters shared. Cherish the sadness that has passed and the happiness that to be remembered.

It's easy to find friends but hard to get those who really understands you. Cherish them all. Do not let their hands go. Do not let them walk away. Don't let loneliness to get you but to let happiness be with you.

I pray...I pray hard for you, my friends...Wishing you to be happy always...Even if I faded from your world, I know there's a memory of me inside your heart. I love you eternally...in my heart, there's you, me, us. Thank you for being such a good friend to me. Thank you...

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

2010-01-08T22:17:00.001-08:00

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Vintage photos - Family pictures

The End of Silence....Setsugetsuka

2010-01-02T04:36:00.001-08:00

credit: YT + the person who uploaded it

Well...Just because I love the lyrics XD Enjoy!

Saranghae. Annyeong... (사랑해.안녕...)

2009-12-11T21:47:00.000-08:00

Saranghae. Annyeong

During those sleepless nights
Tears seeping onto my pillow
Flowing down washing away
Sorrows I am feeling now

Looking as I walk closer
Walking towards you
Even standing in front of you
But you will never remember

Mine is just a face
Among the millions
Never will you realize
The love that radiates from the window of my soul

I came to know…
Someone resides your heart
Tears never stop forming
Heart torn into million pieces

I know then it’s time
To erase you from my memories
Though I wish there’s a chance
Me saying I love you
Just this one final time

Smiles you are giving
Laughters you are sharing
Can never only be mine
Forever and always

Just a girl from the millions
Standing in front of you
A mere presence
Or just an unknown passerby
That you never remember or even realize

I know then it’s time
To erase you from my memories
Though I wish there’s a chance
Me saying I love you
Just this one final time

This time
I will create more memories
Without you in them
No more tears, no more sadness
No more you

It’s time
To erase you from my memories
Though I wish somehow a chanc
You hearing me say
For one and only time

Saranghae. Annyeong...

Rain...

2009-12-03T04:57:00.000-08:00

Rain

There are times
When rain starts to fall
I started to think of you

Thinking we share the same umbrella
Walking in the rain
Two by two holding hands

The rain never stops us
Feeling the warmth
On our very own world

But ever since you gone
There’s no one for me to share my umbrella with
The warmth that I always known
Has disappeared slowly

I looked around
Thought that person was you
Only to find it wasn’t
When he turned around while I called out loud

I always saw you
And I tried to grasp your hand
Only to hold onto nothing
And I wake up from my dream

You have said
You will be right here with me always
But tonight in the rain
I get drenched and lonely again…

What if...

2009-10-17T23:25:00.000-07:00

Life's been not smooth for me lately...Everything seems not in good form...job, friendship, family, makes things short, everything!

Well...that's not my point of this blog. Nowadays even my fave band, TVXQ, in trouble. The lawsuit till now...no conclusions? Sigh...but what if the three of them didn't win? What if is SM Entertainment win? What will happen? 3 of them will not be in that company anymore...and I don't think SM Entertainment will let the other two go. Will they go for ways like Shinhwa? (I heard is Eric paid the company lots of money so that they will be free...) or will they choose to split? (which I certainly hope not!)

I always thought TVXQ is South Korea's national treasure. When they disband means no more this treasure?

I wonder then...if the 3 lost and disbandment happens, will there be protest on the road by Cassiopeias and Bigeasts? Will they do so in front of the company? To the international fans, will we...send petitions or even protest in front of Korean embassies in our respective countries? Will we do so??? I wonder...

Mooncake Festival

2009-10-03T21:30:00.000-07:00

Mooncake Lantern Festival just passed and I went for a walk with my nephew and niece with lantern in my hand. Kind of bring back my memories of childhood. I was a little embarrassed with that actually. Well...I don't really feel the festive spirit this year. What's more with the H1N1 and not many people buying lanterns (probably due to economic crisis???)

Anyway, Koreans do look on this festival as important. It's their Thanksgiving Day or known as Chuseok...to read more about this, click on Chuseok ^^

2009-09-26T19:34:00.000-07:00

My eldest sister has given birth to a baby boy yesterday! so just wanna shout out here and I am now become AUNTY for the 3RD time!!! Congrats to my sis!May them be happy always...and a warm welcome, baby, to the family!

And not so congrats to me (AUNTY for 3rd time...I don't supposed I can feel happy when I bring my nephews and niece out as people will think they are my children -__-'')

Nothing better than that

2009-09-21T22:39:00.000-07:00

I think it's something that's worth to share in here... so here goes...12:34 (Nothing better than that) by TVXQ

12:34
The scattered past times,
And our timid smiles we shared are becoming one by the purple ocean,
Although we haven't been lovers for long,
The footsteps we imprinted one by one while looking at the same direction are with me,
Nothing better than that

The days I could not think preciously of another person other than me,
Because of the loneliness which became natural for me,
The incandascent sun which bothered the mornings,
The bright moon which lightened the road at night,
The small and innocent memories make me sulk and restless

I've figured it out now that you're my only love,
I'll become the warm wind and embrace you,
So you can't remember the tears you cried without my knowing,
At times I'm afraid that you'll disappear like an illusion,
No matter if it rains, or it becomes as pitch dark,
I'll wait by your side, nothing better than that

The conversation we shared over the phone,
The times you complained after falling down,
Your expressions and body language make me laugh

The scattered past times,
And our timid smiles we shared are becoming one by the purple ocean,
Although we haven't been lovers for long,
The footsteps we imprinted one by one while looking at the same direction are with me,
Nothing better than that

The world in which flowers blossom and fade in a day,
My feelings for you, despite the millions of love which engrave itself and erase,
Although the uncountable times pass slowly,
The love I promised you on that day will always remain forever

I've figured it out now that you're my only love,
I'll become the warm wind and embrace you,
So you can't remember the tears you cried without my knowing,
At times I'm afraid that you'll disappear like an illusion,
No matter if it rains, or it becomes as pitch dark,
I'll wait by your side, nothing better than that

By your side,
I'll become a tree,
I'll give you a place to rest,
I'll be your guiding light,
And wait for you,
Nothing better than that

Credits : fly-away@soompi+ DBSKer

Pretty boys out! Here comes the independent ladies!

2009-09-12T20:35:00.000-07:00

well...well...what do we have here...???

hmmm...Girl groups popping out in South Korea entertainment worls just like mushrooms after the rain. To name a few, SNSD (which is quite old news), Wonder Girls (another old news)...and I was thinking that it may slow down a little bit due to some boybands popping out again after that such as Shinee and 2PM/2AM...but then the cycle of entertainment world turned again...

This time it's 2ne1, 4minute and f(x)...(well...these few are the top now). And well...well...what do you know...I found out that the girl groups lately has a few boy lookalikes!

Let's start with the obvious one...Amber of f(x)
If you see her picture, you may think it's a pretty boy (if you show me before they debut officially, I might have thought so too). She's been said to look like Jonghyun of Shinee and Donghae and Kibum of SuJu...(which I think she looks like Donghae more...). To see the article, click on Amber of f(x)

The next will be 2NE1's CL...
Strong independent lady is in the house! With her looks, she can be very executive-like big boss!The girl who is the pillar of a company ^^

Come to the next one is 4minute's Jiyoon...
a charismatic and strong image when dancing and singing...hmm...no wonder the fans shout and shout...

To read what I want to talk about read this: Boys?

Maybe it's time to end the era of pretty boys and start a new trend, Tomboy...

By the way, don't you think history repeat? f(x) has a member who looks so boyish and yet TVXQ has a member that is pretty...maybe a replacement? or just coincidence? Only the company knows...

p/s: if you tell me that f(x) is the female version of TVXQ then I agree with it ahahaha...

A song to some...but inspiration to me...

2009-09-04T20:32:00.000-07:00

Music is something that is special to me...something that have always been in my life. Maybe I can't play a musical instrument and I am not a good singer...but it's something I love the most...Lately, I have this thinking...(my immaturity appears again)...ok...according to my family I shouldn't go crazy on them anymore...I do sometimes agree but I can't get away from music! and i certainly doesn't hope anything happened to them.

At this point of crisis in life, I wish that they will sing "Asu wa kuru kara" for us, the fans...at least we will then know there's hope even if it's for one day...

Sharing, Because Tomorrow Comes (Asu Wa Kuru Kara)...

credit: YT+those uploaded them...

It's weird coincidence...

2009-08-13T00:35:00.001-07:00

I believe it's just weird coincidence ...well at least till now that I figured it out but maybe I love number 5 after all...

1. There are 5 members in my family...and I am the fifth member. My family: parents (of course including my late father!), my two elder sisters and me...

2. I have 5 ear piercings on both my ears.

3. I was born in 1985 and it can be added to become 5!
1+9+8+5=23
2+3=5

4. My birthdate, 17 June, can be added to become 5 too!
17 +6= 23
2+3= 5

5. Even my mobile phone number can be added to 5...if you ignore the network (e.g.:012, 016, etc.)
2+0+0+6+2+7+6=23
2+3=5

Extra: I like TVXQ! which consists of 5 members too! XDDD

So what you wish to be?

2009-08-01T22:07:00.000-07:00

So what is nerd and what is geek...even worse what is dork? It seems to me that they have same meaning yet different.

A nerd is someone who is so into academic fields (I guess I am a nerd)...Someone who is passionately pursues intellectual activities rather than engage in social activities. Someone like this will be a loner or usually associates with people in their own circles.

A geek...A 'geek' is someone with an interest or lifestyle, usually an obscure one, having to do with computers, science fiction, etc. They loves technologies...and peculiar and odd person.

And apparently...a dork has heavier meaning in it (when I read about it, I wonder why some fans said Jaejoong is a dork...maybe he is silly?). Even worse, it has vulgar meaning! Read here: dork

I believe it's still not nice to label people using all these three words. Still people have their own abilities...
Read this article which attracts my attention: Nerds, Geeks and Dorks

Butlers

2009-07-22T23:44:00.000-07:00

I think the feeling or mindset of wanting a butler came from a manga...how weird but it's true as I read the manga once again. The Tuxedo Mask (in Sailormoon) has actually triggered my mind of wanting a man...more to like a boyfriend like him. He looks good in suits, just like a butler. Lately I have been thinking a lot of butlers...Wanting to open a cafe where staffs wear like butler and apron around their waist...doesn't that sound nice and wonderful? If only Malaysia is not a hot and humid country then it might be a very good dream but too bad. My butlers will die from being too hot wearing those suits and bows.

Guys who came into my mind as ideal butlers: Uknow Yunho (see him in O- Jung Ban Hap mv!) and Choi Siwon (the ever smiling prince). I think Choikang Changmin can be a good butler too (except he looks a little too young? to me).

World today...

2009-07-17T20:11:00.000-07:00

We all (well...most of us) gone through our childhood with all those fairytales where the princesses and princes live happily ever after...We do, don't we?

But have you ever wonder if the story ends with the phrase "happily ever after"? well....maybe they so much in love with each other but will there be no arguments or anything? What if that prince or princess found another better companion? Hmm...that's what happening in our next generation's life. With the increasing cases of divorce among parents, it seems a child might has a few pairs of parents. I must say it's not "happily ever after" anymore. Happily ever after might just become a real fantasy to those children. They might feel happy with their few pairs of parents but sadly children will not be able to live with their real parents in one same roof.

It's saddening nowadays as I think number of orphans increase lately too. Children have been the sufferrers of the cruel adult doings. We, the human is slowly changing into animals. Maybe even lower than the animals as animals still love their children (except some natural thingy that made the adult animals leave their eggs). Maybe then it's time for the virus to work against us now....the H1N1 to wipe out the people in the world...maybe new evolution will be born soon...

Mixed mixed...

2009-07-08T21:29:00.000-07:00

Hmm...Life's never been so tired till this point of my life...ok ignore me...I am seriously out of control now ahaha....

Oh! I am on Twitter now and is currently following JGShock!!! Wonder who he/she is? Go check it out...You will be like me, shocked with my jaw dropped open! ^^v

Sorry...but my feeling does not change to happy for long.I wonder what have I done wrong till I got rejected from many jobs... (my dream job actually rejected my application without even asking me to interview... TT________TT) I am truly sad...perhaps I am just naive...too naive and unfriendly person...

Something that makes me feel...

2009-07-04T05:50:00.000-07:00

just something to show you all...

and this... is awesome!

credit: YT + those who uploaded them ^^

Crossroad...again...

2009-07-04T01:42:00.000-07:00

I am now at the crossroad of my life once more...
Maybe I will take another wrong turn
never will be able to turn back again.

someday...
I hope that i will get out of this maze
and never to return to this crossroad again...
i looked up to see the front road
and saw nothing straight ahead
for there were mists
blocking the view of my sight...

I wish I never lost
In this maze again
just keep on walking
And praying till the end...

2009-06-26T04:25:00.000-07:00

The stress on me now...I have bad feeling about my joblessness...I starting to feel bored with my life...do I have mild depression? I think I might have. sigh~~~

Anywhere is similar...

2009-06-21T23:56:00.000-07:00

I read something about kindergarten teachers in Seoul and I couldn't believe that we all faced the same problems!!! ahahaha...to read, click on this: Korean Kindergarten Teachers

After reading, you might need to be thankful to your teachers!

Deleting last post...

2009-06-20T18:58:00.000-07:00

Before I read the comments in my last post, I take back my words....I don't hate my mum...just feel frustrated, that's all...

I actually have to thank her alot...because I had my chickenpox!!! *sob sob* If it's not her then what I gonna do right? Therefore, I gonna delete my post ^^

Thanks Mum!!!

Random things do happen...

2009-06-05T22:24:00.000-07:00

Something random came into my mind for awhile lately...

I think guys who can cook well is sexy!!! Ok....maybe hot guys like Jaejoong and Junki has captured my heart but don't you think guys in apron are sexy? I don't know but to me, a woman's happiness is when her another half cooks for her (at least to me!) Or maybe because I can't cook??? XDDD

Why...

2009-06-02T22:10:00.000-07:00

I am now very depressed...once again I am jobless and my mother started to nag me again. Indeed the wheel of my life turning back to square one. Nothing seems to be good in my life. I am so tired of it. How can I be such an indecisive person when this is my own life and I am the one living in it??? I don't get it. Is it the blame should be put on my parents' guidance or should I blame myself???

I think it's entirely my fault (though I tend to blame others for my misfortunes). There was once I heard on a talk saying parents should not scold the floor when your child fell down (but my parents seemed to do so when I was young). It is because this will make the child that as they grow up and when they met any failure in life, they will blame the others (such as PARENTS) for not educating them well...

I now very very indeed desperate to find a job, yet I am indecisive. How am I going to find a job that I love this way? I am now lost and drowned in my own life.

To Anonymous, well...blog should be places for me to let go my stress...I am working on it. (Only here I can sulk and cry...)

Level of Maturity...

2009-05-30T20:35:00.000-07:00

Maturity - a term used in psychology to indicate that a person responds to the circumstances or environment in an appropriate manner. (Wikipedia)

Well...indeed how you count the level of maturity? Some people think that the way you react in a situation is matured and some don't think you are not. As for me, I think I will be the most immature 24 years old person. I don't think like one. In fact, I still think like a teenager and think life is full of happiness (but in truth, I am a depressed child so I don't think that way...only that my future is bleak and fragile and I might kill myself here and then).

I still dressed myself like a child and obsessed with boybands and hot guys (which is just my wish that someday a hot guy like any of them will fall in love with me but how cruel reality can be...my wish is left as a wish...).

And I do blame on others when I facing some obstacles. I hate myself for that. I wish I can be more matured...sometimes, when my friends were talking, I just don't get them because their level of maturity is indeed higher (much much more) then mine. Sigh...maybe that's why I don't have many friends...

For now, I wish my level of maturity can make me through my life and land me into a good lovely suitable job for myself.

Tagged!

2009-05-17T04:40:00.000-07:00

1. Date of birth:

17 June

2. Best present that you've received:

A car (a Kenari maybe but it's better than nothing! ^^)
A VIP concert ticket (make it two! TVXQ~~~)

3. The gift you wanted:

A new desktop/laptop
A tour to South Korea
A new handphone
A boyfriend? ahaha XDDD
Get me TVXQ? errr....tat's for unrealistic gift ahaha...meeting with TVXQ upclose (shake hands and take a pics will be definitely awesome)

4. Fav colour?

Blue, Black, White
White

5. Fav numbers:

3, 7 and 17

6. Place that you want to travel:

Hokkaido, Japan
South Korea
Dubai
Rome
Athens

7. You feel happy when you...

Online
Reading storybooks
Listen to music
Writing

8. Fav movie..

The King and the Clown
The Classic
May 18
My Way Home
(all of them are korean movies...weird)

9. Fav artist:

TVXQ
Super Junior
SS501
Park Hyo Shin
Lee Junki

10. Tagged :

Anyone who wants to do it!

Sha la la~~~

2009-05-16T20:51:00.000-07:00

Ok...I am so dead. Even though my future is not yet known (who can really predict future? Not even those fengshui masters can know when they will die ahaha), I have decided to quit my kindergarten job! ^^v So future ahead...my life will be like a boat on a rough sea....will I be safe or I will drown and lost in that fight? Just hope for the best!

2009-05-03T01:11:00.000-07:00

A song that makes me happy~~~updating my songs in my blog!!!

Kiss the Baby Sky - Tohoshinki

It's just that my family has made me annoyed tremendously lately.Listen to this song will make me happy. Let's just hope my family will stop the nagging soon.

2009-05-02T23:14:00.000-07:00

Oh God...just a few months of scavenging for line...i mean connection and now I am outdated from entertainment world.

I am suddenly tired of my life again. Frustrated and thought of weird things. Nowadays if you wanna just to have a glimpse of being famous, it's easy. Get yourself become the 1st victim to die because of H1N1 virus (aka swine flu) in your country. That will make you famous? Ok...I am being weird. But I am too frustrated with my life now.

Nothing goes smooth for me. Should I cry? I wish I can cry out but I can't. And they say "fei yan yao fei fook". Not at all...

J style~~~

2009-04-13T04:59:00.000-07:00

J style~~~ I in love with Junki again and again...J style is just absolutely gorgeous!!!*dead* Enjoy the view, everyone~~~*muaks!*

After all these while...

2009-04-03T07:59:00.000-07:00

Well...guess what...that fella noticed my presence and locked his/ her wireless!!! So here I am, using my cousin's line ahaha...once a while only. TT_____TT I won't get to online that much. *pout* If anything, sms me ok? That if you have my number hehe~~~=P

A Quiz that made me realized...

2009-03-25T06:08:00.000-07:00

This is who I really am...
I got to know about this from my cousin's blog and it's quite true to me ^^v Wanna try? Here's the link: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx Do try it yourself ok?

And here's my result hehehe...

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2009-03-06T22:38:00.000-08:00

A week (or more?) without internet...it makes me feel...horrible!!! Oh god...but after this time, I feel that I am very dependent to the internet. As if my life revolves around it...That's kinda bad actually. Oh well...life's been quite ok to me...but kids don't seem to be scared of me at all which is sad thing for me.

And I actually applied KPLI, to be a primary teacher. Let's hope I get it.Pray for me ok? Now I gotta catch up the Kkotboda Namja drama series XDDD

Greedy me

2009-02-19T00:32:00.000-08:00

People never satisfied. Always want to have something that doesn't meant for them. I think we all are greedy. I am surely one of them.

I want my nose to be sharper, my face to be slimmer, my eyes to be rounder...which will make me look like a doll. I want to be richer, to be slim and lean, to be taller, to be prettier...*sigh* I guess I asked too much which it won't happen at all. I tried to keep my eating habit and exercise but I don't feel I am any way slimmer. Sigh. Richer...I am working but kind of underpaid. Tried looking for jobs but none is suitable. Taller...there's no way I can get any taller with my age. Plastic surgery is one of the choices for me to be like a doll XDDD but no money means no pretty...

Money money...I wish you can come to me~~~

2009-02-13T22:23:00.000-08:00

Since past few days my jaw felt hurt and I was having flu. sigh...I really am prone to cold I guess. Today is Valentine's day and here I am typing away in my blog. But I don't feel pathetic or anything. In fact, I am quite happy. It's weekends! Finally!

I went to meet my friends last night in a Korean restaurant in Melaka. The Jab Chae was awesome! So was the seafood steamboat but too bad that I couldn't follow them to go singing in karaoke. I got to work today TT________TT Friends that I seldom meet. Awkward and felt happy were mixed together. About 3 years we didn't meet each other. Sigh...and one of them will be flying back to Beijing next week (to study). Anyway, she will be back again in October this year. ^^ Hope we can meet again soon, friends!

Tagged ...this time are songs!

2009-02-06T06:14:00.000-08:00

Been tagged by RaYi again...sigh...

1. Put your iTunes/mp3 player/Cellphone etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Write the name of the song, regardless of however weird :D
4. Tag some friends who might enjoy doing this.

IF SOMEONE SAY "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
너 올 때까지- FT Island

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Me to You, You to Me - The Classic OST

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Good Bye - 4Men

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
너 맘에 들어-I the Tri Tops (I like?)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Mirror - Super Junior (asking me to change my personality more?)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Wild Soul - Changmin

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Heaven - Big Bang

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
I wanna hold you - TVXQ

WHAT IS 2+2?
Union - Joe Hisashi for The Legend's OST

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
My Girl- The One

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Crazy Life - Yunho (O___O)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Till I Find You - Yiruma

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
My Heart Belongs to You - Hayley Westenra

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Keyword- Jaejoong (he's my keyword for my love life? XDDD)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
On The Way - Yiruma (to where?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Last Angel - THSK version

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Lovin' You - TVXQ

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Song for you - TVXQ

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Boku wa Kuma (I am bear?) - Utada Hikaru

WHAT'S THE WORSE THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Miracle - Goong S OST (am I that optimistic that worse thing is a miracle?)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
City of Time - Time between Dog and Wolf OST

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Don't Cry My Love - TVXQ

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Still with You - Eric Benet

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
O- Jung Ban Hap (chinese version) - TVXQ (I know why...their chinese made me cry...just joking...it's about war anyway)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
As Time Passes - Joe Hisashi

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Hell, No - KAT-TUN

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Beautiful life - TVXQ (my life loves me!)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Shine - TVXQ (change my money into shine!)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Last Christmas - Yuji Oda

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Love in snow - Ueda Tatsuya

Now I'm gonna tag :
Farra
Yuk
Jo

"Small tabloid reporters"

2009-02-06T03:42:00.000-08:00

I found out the reason why I hate to become a teacher...I don't have the patience! I hate kids nowadays who love to keep complaining about teachers...hate hate hate...so hate them! It's even for their own good and what their parents know. Hmmph! Really hate!

Sometimes the younger kids are cute but as they grow, so are the devils inside them. I just felt that I want to slap them using my slippers. Gah!!!

I still love kids though but not when they become those who likes to report everything to their parents and blame everything on the teachers.

When we were young and punished by teachers, we wouldn't even dare to talk about it. Or else our parents would said "Very good. You should be punished because of that!"

Sigh...kids these days are just too spoiled...but I still like kids...just hate those "small tabloid reporters" who bad mouth others.

Miss Miss

2009-02-05T06:40:00.000-08:00

Suddenly I miss my blonde hair...and my hair that is longish...sigh...I am weird and random.

Lately, I miss a lot of things...but I miss money the most. I want money most XDDD I want to buy albums, laptop/desktop, books, clothes, keep money for trip to South Korea and money for further study!!!

Sigh...money money...

Anyway, changed the song to Bolero (Piano Version) by tvxqpiano from LJ. I love it!!!

Tagged...I kinda hate it..

2009-01-31T04:48:00.000-08:00

16 randomness and 5 people to be tagged??? I don't have 5 that much...Tagged by Ms Rayi...*sigh* no one left to be tagged le...and they can't tag me right? I better do this ahaha...

1. My nickname is PyNiC. Combination of my real name's initial and english name. Py + NiC = PyNiC. Get it?

2. I think i am genderless...cos I hate feminine things yet loves them. Loves masculine stuffs yet hates them.

3. Supporter of freedom of love. well...not freedom of sex but LOVE. Homosexuality is fine with me as long as I am not involved?*as in lesbian*

4. I am prone to cold. Almost every month I will have flu and cough once.*sigh*

5. I am a vampire. Well...hard to explain that.

6. I love garlic. Come to that, I am a weird vampire that don't hate garlic? XDDD

7. I only listen to Kpop and Jpop now. I find them soothing though I don't understand them at all...

8. I can't speak fluently. huh...probably cos my tongue too short.

9. I am Rayi's and Jo's stalker. Ahaha...I mostly chat with these two people =)

10. I am too random that I don't even understand what I have talked about even though it's just a few seconds ago.

11. I love crying. I cry a lot when listening to songs. Yet I seldom cry when watching TV dramas and movies.

12. I work as kindergarten teacher. Weird isn't it? Last thing in my mind is becoming a teacher ahaha.

13. I LOVE PRETTY GUYS...and I admit it.

14. I lost my handphone and found it safe and sound on that same day.

15. When someone trying to massage my bruise, instead of shouting of pain, I will only laugh aloud. =___=''' I know I am weird.

16. My method of studying is listening to music, watch TV or surfing the Net and my books on my lap ^^

Tagging:
Farra
Yuki

*since I don't have that many friends in blog so...I only tag two people. Others being tagged like me by Rayi...

A quite unlucky Chinese New Year

2009-01-30T01:52:00.000-08:00

well...maybe some of you will say that I am pessimistic but it's true. Probably because I am "fan tai sui" (in Chinese lunar calendar, I am Ox and this year is Ox, so it's like I am very "big?" like the most important one). Anyway. most years people with "fan tai sui" is kind of bad luck. I faced it during 3rd day of Chinese New Year.

3rd day of CNY: I almost lost my handphone TT________TT. Well... actually I DID LOST IT! *sigh* dropped it when I wanted to come out from car. I thought that I left it on my sister's car but she said she couldn't find it TT_____TT So, my family members tried to call my handphone number and I thought of the worst. Never to get my handphone back again. I actually more worried of my number than the handphone itself. Not that it is cheap but I think my number more important to me.

Anyway, someone picked up my handphone and it didn't break at all. *Thank the God* It was found by a very good Chinese person and when we contacted them, they returned to us without us needing to repay them. May God bless them all. (though we got to travel quite far to retrieve it but it's my fault so I can't blame anyone). Sigh...since my family members has helped me a lot, therefore, I plan to use part of my ang pow and salary to treat them dinner ^^v

Moral of this story: never to be careless anymore.

3rd day of CNY again: I have vomitted twice that night. Is it because of the rotten egg? But my mother was fine. Or probably I am getting sick and too tired? but then I am always like that. Maybe I have eaten too full? I think it's because I couldn't digest my food. My digestion system have some problems after all. And thinking of that, last year I vomitted too. Thrice for one night. Sigh...life's not that good for me this year. Just started and all bad lucks has come to search for a piece of me *sigh* Let's hope life will be better ^^v

My another half...

2009-01-23T22:08:00.000-08:00

I sit here, looking at the blue sky (it's like summer here). My mind wandering around. Wonder who and where is my another half. Do I have one? Is he still alive? Is he near me or maybe far across the world? How will we meet? I know. I am being ridiculous. Thinking of nonsense things.

It's just that at times of loneliness, I want to just turn my head and there he is, waiting for me and wanting to comfort me. To make me feel I am loved....

Sigh...if only he appears now...*having tremendously serious mood swing*

P.S: criteria of the person I wish for will only appear in my dream XDDD so I will just continue dreaming ^^

Love...love?

2009-01-20T05:06:00.000-08:00

Seriously I think I always talk about love thingy, but then I just encountered something funny recently.

A few days ago, I heard a girl in the kindergarten I working in said she likes a boy in the school. My eyes went wide. To tell you the truth, when I was same age as the child, I don't even think of love. What's love to us then? Since we only know love among family.

Do the kids nowadays grow mature earlier or the mass media and older generation has made them to become like that? Some even have girlfriends. I can't even think about it anymore. I guess I am outdated and now I shall try to keep track with the children now. Even now and then, the children keep surprising me with their thinking, voicing their extraordinary opinions and also their funny attitude towards some matters (that I will talk later).

If you think you are teaching the children, sometimes they are teaching you in return. It's really changing my mind at times.

Weird things tend to happen...

2009-01-17T04:43:00.000-08:00

Get a new haircut and it's very damn short *pardon for the word used here*
I kinda like it though but my mum said "AIYO! SO SHORT! I don't like it!" errr...sorry, mum but it's already done...TT_________TT

Anyway, life is passing by so fast these few days and CNY almost here! Don't know whether should be happy or not cos I haven't buy enough clothes and my shoes! I haven't really buy one. Today went to sing in karaoke in MELAKA! The place is awesome! On the sea! ahaha...and seriously I found that they have three songs of TVXQ (which is quite a surprise because it's not even like Redbox, Greenbox or whatever big karaoke places).

Oh! watched the Call me mv by Taegoon. Jaejoong is hot and Taegoon is hot too. Park Shinhye is pretty too. Still, something missing. I found it kind of meaningless? By the way, Taegoon has given the impression of Jang Woohyuk, Bi and Se7en although his looks reminds me of Henry of Super Junior M. ahaha...

A weird wish, everyone

2009-01-10T21:04:00.000-08:00

Just as I wake up this morning, (I expecting myself to wake up at 10am and indeed I woke up on time, weird but let's get to the topic) my mind wandered around. I lying on my bed and hugging my little bolster. Suddenly I have this wish. I think it's really weird wish, everyone. Prepare for it...

My wish in my head this morning: A guy friend who is gay

First thing is that when I hug my bolster, I felt lonely and wanted to cry. A guy friend is better to hug anyway since he will be having broader shoulder and nice to lean on chest. But then, a gay will most likely to know how a girl feels. Or so is my thought. I think I want a gay friend who has a little of feminine feel in his heart ahaha...

Ok, it's getting weird but I think being with gays is not bad since we can go shopping together, talk about cute guys together, whatever I don't feel like sharing with anyone I can share with him and sometimes I think they are more loyal towards their friends and also their partners. Maybe they flirt around but I think once they found their partners, they hardly have a change of heart (hardly, I said...I mean they might have change of heart but the percentages is low, in my opinion).

And most importantly, when you sober, you wouldn't need to worry about them sleeping beside you. They not interested to having sexual intercourse with you. No worries about pregnancies XDDD Looks like I really interested in gays? XDDD I am an otaku who loves BL manhwa/ manga (in love with The Summit by Lee Young Hee but I can't read other completed chapters other than those in the Net TT_________TT)

Anyway, it's hard to find a heterosexual guy with understanding on women's heart and feelings. After all, there's still gender differences between us. Each of us is different and even among the women, we might not be able to understand the other women. Sigh...I need to find someone who can understand me and know what I am thinking.

Surprises? NOT!!!

2009-01-05T01:18:00.000-08:00

Surprises...surprises...somehow it came at the end of year till today? XDDD

1st surprise: Are Jaejoong and Han Hyo-joo dating?
Jaejoong has acted as Yuu while Hyo joo is Saki in Heaven's Postman. Yuu and Saki is lover after all. So if they do dating off screen, I am not surprised...duh...pretty girl with pretty boy...they actually can be a cute couple. Besides, I love her too but I don't really like her hairstyle -.-lll

2nd surprise: Heechul kissing guys...is he a gay?
Well...so what if he is? Idol do have their own rights...they are humans after all, right? I think he followed the steps of J-rocker XDDD very cool!

3rd surprise: I feel like killing myself
Not a surprise either. After your mother nagging you for so many years, every day...I believe you already did it before I do.

Time to Start...

2009-01-02T23:32:00.000-08:00

2009..new year but yet only today I have time to update my blog. So, nothing new happened in my life so far. Nothing change...yet? I thought of topics to start for my new year post and my mind only can think of this XDDD .

TOPIC OF THE DAY: The Men That I Think are LOYAL (TOP THREE)
Ok...before I start, let's just say I don't know much people and this is just my opinion so no bashing me, ok? Let's start with number 3 then.

My number 3: Lee Jun Ki
ok, I know it's weird but the main reason I am choosing him is I do not hear any rumours of him and any actresses. Probably there is...but then he somehow reserved and mysterious. There's no bad history with ex-girlfriends that I heard of. Come to that, I heard he had two ex-girlfriends. But why number 3? ahaha...He's too reserved at times and I don't really feel sense of security from him that much? That's why he's number 3. Ok...onto my number 2.

My number 2: Jung Yunho
The leader of TVXQ, manly and dashing. Playfulness and cuteness that he doesn't show much, he catches my heart with his smile that hinted with innocence. Number 2 because he gives me the sense of security which I think is most important. To me, I think he's one that won't hurt people. Maybe people disagree but I trust my inituition...He's somehow indescribable. Hard to be described about the feeling of him giving to me but I am sure he's one good asset.

My number 1: of course it's...my late father
ahaha...I just think so? ahaha...but everytime my mother spoke of him, I can feel the love radiates from her. Maybe he's stubborn yet he loved my mother a lot. A man that sacrified time of resting just to help his wife to look after children and always to take care of his children well...he's really a good man indeed. I will find a man like him as my other half or so I hope. Ah...thinking of him makes me want to cry. Pardon me. And oh...my father celebrated his birthday on 2nd of January (he was registered late by my late grandpa). If he didn't pass away, he would be 65 now. Happy birthday to you, dad in heaven, Happy birthday...

Tada, Kimi Wo Aishiteru...Renai Shashin

2008-12-29T01:35:00.000-08:00

A few days away and soon it's new year again. 2009...I wonder how I will be. Just suddenly I in love again and again...with someone I don't even know or existed? I don't know but I felt the love in me just keep overflowing. Probably too much of love songs XDDD

New year shall be started with love song then. Hmmm...let me see...how about the song by Otsuka Ai, Renai Shashin? A song that has touches many people's hearts. It is an OST for Tada, Kimi Wo Aishiteru aka Heavenly Forest.

This movie acted by Tamaki Hiroshi (better known as Chiaki senpai in Nodame Cantabile) and Miyozaki Aoi (she acted with Junki before too^^ and also in Nana). The story is just beautifully unfolded and you never guess that a simple love story can be just that touching. (been crying everytime I watched it =___=). If possible, do try to watch this movie! Enjoy this song as we welcoming the new year ^0^.

P.S: I do have the translation of this song. Just lazy want to post them. It's <333 I must say...

Bolero

2008-12-28T19:59:00.000-08:00

Sad songs never fail to make me cry...indeed, though it's a holiday for me today, I'm feeling sad...this song is just so nice. Ah~~~ I wonder who are their girlfriends. But whether it's good or not, I don't know. Wishing them good luck though ^0^

Enjoy the song, Bolero...

Gifts...

2008-12-27T07:20:00.000-08:00

Gifts...aren't we ask for more realistic and practical things such as CDs, books or just anything that we can touch and feel? I am not sure...but on Christmas day, I have sent emoticon for my friend, YS who thought of it as his Xmas present. I was actually quite surprised he would wish me and considered that as my Xmas present to him. Thanks, pal. You made me believe that there are still people aren't that greedy after all.

Today, there's a kid having his celebration of birthday in the kindergarten with his friends. But instead of us, teachers giving him presents, his mother gave us each teacher one small present. When I opened it, it was a small pocket mirror with Junki doll at the front cover. I felt pleasant since I like him so much ^^v

Here, I want to wish them good health ^^

P.S: I consider it as my Xmas present. Second one though, since I asked YS to pray for my health as return for my Xmas present to him ahaha...

Merry Xmas

2008-12-23T22:48:00.000-08:00

Well...

Merry Christmas to everyone although it still a day to go...

anyway, time flies fast. This year, Xmas is not fun for me. I am having cold right now *sniff sniff*

urgh~~~I always get sick during end of year. To people out there, do take care of your health and rest well.

P.S: waiting for new year to come...new year new hope or so they said...v(^.^)v by then, I am 24!!!*sob sob*

The circle of friends

2008-12-19T03:58:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I think and wonder why. There are people telling me at times true friends are hard to find...as you grow up and older.

Do people change to become not that innocent and trying to use each other instead of becoming truthful one? People argued a lot. Yet, these few days in the kindergarten, I saw children saying "I am not friending with you." and the next minute, they were holding hands, smiling and laughing together.

Do we really grow up and change to become nasty person? I wonder...truly wonder...still I believe there are truly some people friending us without any intentions to harm us and truly trusting us...I believe...

To the first comment in my previous post, thank you for your comforting words but my heart will never be the same again, not after that email. For now, I am trying hard to forget these two persons...and still trying...PyNiC can do this is what I am telling myself...

In sadness, there's happiness...

2008-12-13T02:15:00.000-08:00

This week...I am not sure whether it's good or bad...
One day, I got an email which broke my heart so much and the other day I started to work as a kindergarten teacher.

The children in the school, although naughty, sometimes you feel at peace too because they are just innocent. They also be a true person, without any masks covering their true personality. They just open up themselves to the world and proud of themselves.

I sometimes feel that instead of them learning from their elders and older person, I think we in turn learn so much from them. I truly believe so.

About the email I got, well... I must have said I am terribly upset by it. But what's the point to feel so when the other party do not even care? The way the person reacted is protecting her own loved ones. I know how she started to feel suspicious and defensive. I just wanted to wish her and her loved ones good luck. I will forget about both of them and go on with my life. Whoever she is and he is, I won't say it.

Just like my previous post, I shall say annyeong to them.

Saranghae. Annyeong.

2008-12-05T00:53:00.000-08:00

During those sleepless nights
Tears seeping onto my pillow
Flowing down, washing away
Sorrows I am feeling now

Looking as I walk closer
Walking towards you
Even standing in front of you
But you will never remember

Mine is just a face
Among the millions
Never will you realize
The love radiates from the window of my soul

I came to know...
Someone resides your heart
Tears never stop forming
Heart torn into million pieces

I know then it's time
To erase you from my memories
Though I wish there's a chance
Me saying I love you
Just this one final time

Smiles you are giving
Laughters you are sharing
Can never only be mine
Forever and always

Just a girl from the millions
Standing in front of you
A mere presence
Or just an unknown passerby
That you never remember or even realize

I know then it's time
To erase you from my memories
Though I wish there's a chance
Me saying I love you
Just this one final time

This time...
I will create more memories
Without you in them
No more tears, no more sadness
No more you

It's time
To erase you from my memories
Though I wish somehow
You hearing me say
For one and only time

Saranghae. Annyeong.

Written by: PyNiC

A/N: If this is to made into a song, will it make you feel sad? I wonder about it too. Written on 5th Dec, 2008 and ended at 2.30am. I think my inspiration coming back to me? v^0~v

By the way, songs to hear along: If and Can you hear me by Taeyeon + Don't Cry My Love by TVXQ. Enjoy...

Arigatou...

2008-12-02T23:55:00.000-08:00

December is here and the year almost ending soon. Bad and good things happened throughout the year. Still, I think since the new year approaching, it's time to be thankful. Thankful that we can overcome all these although we lose something. Thankful that we owned that precious thing before.

Therefore, I chose this song, Arigatou by Kokia to be my blog's music.

Do enjoy as I sending you the translation of this song, Arigatou...

Everyone loses something
Before they even realise it
I suddenly realise that you’ve gone
Leaving behind only memories
Amid the happiness, we lost our words
Like dolls
Like all those lost cats on the street corner
I hear a silent scream

If I could see you one more time
I just want to say one word: thankyou, thankyou

Even if I get hurt sometimes
I want to keep feeling you
At least I have my memories to comfort me
I’ll always have you here

If I could see you one more time
I just want to say one word: thankyou, thankyou

If I could see you one more time
I just want to say one word
If I could see you one more time
I just want to say one word: thankyou, thankyou

Even if I get hurt sometimes, I want to keep feeling you

Things do happen...

2008-12-02T01:43:00.000-08:00

Who would have believe it until they watch this by themselves? Enjoy!

Another one...hehe

Aren't they cool? XDDD

A Genderless Strawberry?

2008-12-01T00:11:00.000-08:00

You Are a Strawberry

You are friendly, outgoing, and well liked by many people.

You are popular, but there's nothing you ordinary or average about you.

You a very interesting person, and you have many facets to your personality.

Sometimes you feel very conflicted. Your different sides of your personality pull at you.

You are a very sensual and passionate person. You are fiery... you can't help it.

In general, you keep your passionate side under wraps. You are only wild in private.

What Type of Fruit Are You?

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.

Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.

You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.

You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

November over...December comes...

2008-11-30T23:38:00.000-08:00

Well...if you ask me whether it's good or not, I think it's in between.

End of year, celebration of Christmas is coming along which means the birth of Jesus...along a week later, it's new year celebration. Well, those studying in Malaysia (primary, secondary n high schools) will have school holidays in December and some will end their major exams by this month.

But on the other hand, I feel that something is not so right by the end of the year. It seems that bad luck start to come at once to you. As if they wanted to finish off the bad luck for this year before they decide whether to keep for next year. It's something weird with the world too, such as more deaths, killings, suicides, terrorism, bad economics start as the end of year approaching. People start to fall sick and so on. Future looks bleak and we feel depressed. All come at one time.

I too feel so but then again what's there to look beyond if we don't look forward to next year right? New year come and go. It's a wheel of life. I believe it's important to look forward our life instead of lingering in the past. I did not mean memories should not be remembered. Instead, let's forget about the bad past and look fo the bright future.

Happy December, everyone.

credits:EienNoSetsuna @ YT

Rainbow anyone?

2008-11-26T18:23:00.000-08:00

Your rainbow is noticably shaded white, orange, and blue.

What is says about you: You are a contemplative person. You appreciate a challenge. Others are amazed at how you don't give up. You share hobbies with friends and like trying to fit into their routines.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

Twins...

2008-11-03T22:59:00.000-08:00

Do you know...if you asking me about things that fascinates me, I think one of them will be twins. No matter it's identical or fraternal twins, I believe somehow they feel for each other.

There are times I wish I have a twin brother or sister, probably due to that I am youngest and the age gap between my siblings and me are quite large. Maybe when I have a twin, will I be a different person than who I am now? I think most probably will for then I can share all my thoughts to him/her.

In the entertainment world, there's few famous twins such as Olsen twins and so on. I believe that most people believe that twins should have same habits or interests. That, I do not really agree as I have friends who are twins have similar but yet different interests, habits and even personalities.

To share with those who is reading: The List of Twins

oh by the way, I think Junsu of TVXQ has a very supportive twin brother ^^ and I do somehow associated with Twins (my sign is Gemini, the Twins hehe)

Fake butterfly lovers

2008-10-15T01:50:00.000-07:00

well...well...I just back from Genting Highlands a few days ago. And I got my T album CD+DVD courtesy of my cousin (thanks!) on the way there ^^v

That's not the point I wanna say...my main point is...DO NOT WATCH BUTTERFLY LOVERS~
yea...what can i say...I watched it in Genting...though Wu zun is good looking (or pretty) and Ah sa is pretty...the storyline sucks...A sad love story which originally wanting to make people cry has instead made the six of us laughed till the end (sorry to Wu zun and Ah sa).

The fake blood used in the movie looked like McDonalds' chili sauce and the ending is hillarious...Ok, Wu Zun in the story is dead but when Ah sa wakes up from her fake death, the others still continue to bury the both of them XDDD It did not make sense at all...so guys, if u really wanna watch it...then i think u better download or watch it online...XDDD

Forgotten Season...Autumn?

2008-09-30T03:05:00.001-07:00

Since autumn should be almost here...so I have decided to change the song and this song is definitely suits autumn ^^;;

Listening to Jaejoong singing this song during autumn...it makes me heart break but at the same time, it was also calming.

So I am sharing with all of you ^^ enjoy it!

Teachers...don't stop me from blogging!!!

2008-09-28T02:46:00.000-07:00

Well well...out of sudden, I have so much things in my mind that I want to say. But I do not know which and how should I express myself in words =S

First thing...so many things have changed in my life. People grow, people die...life is so short indeed. I think my life is so boring now. I need something to boost my life ahaha when MIROTIC drop into my life TT_________TT I miss TVXQ that much~~~and my roomie started to say I might go crazy soon.

Oh, I heard something from my friends regarding the teachers vs. blogging XDDD That was such a funny thing. I believe we don't have freedom of speech after all, not even when we are dead actually.

back to the topic anyway...I heard from R that her blog was being read by her teacher Pn. P, and she was accused of bad mouthing that particular Pn. P which she was actually just mentioned a little sarcastically about her vocal...The school authorities wanted to force R to particularly delete the blog but did not manage to do so due to their school's online system was down. Anyway, her blog would be watched by the discipline teacher I think.

So where's the freedom of speech? Maybe students are wrong...but teachers are always right? the answer is....WRONG!!! Teachers are human too and humans do make mistakes. So, teachers...please please reconsider your own behaviour to not to allow students not to blog...aren't your behaviours even more childish at times? And...students who keep their own opinions in their hearts will go crazy someday after it reach their limit...They might kill you, teachers...if you are not careful...ehehe...

Notes of the day: Teachers, blogging is one of the way where students trying to express themselves to the world. Instead of trying to block students from blogging, why don't you all just listen to their problems and when you think that they bad mouting you...find out what makes the students say so and try to change yourself if you are the wrong one?

Stuck...

2008-09-27T06:44:00.000-07:00

There are times when I came to my blog, wanting to post something up, my mind get stuck with nothing to write. It was weird that sometimes I, myself do not feel to write out my feelings. Am I a too defensive person that I do not like to show my feelings to others? Or am I just some silly girl who feel ashamed if people find me strange? I think I am both...thin faced and don't like people to know what my mind is about.

sigh...it's been long since I change the song of my blog but I love hwashin too much. It's...too sad...sob sob...but I think I will come out with posting new song soon...

I find myself in a "Miro" but the clock ic TICking....I feel MiroTIC... so lame joke ehehe...

My Definition of Grey Element

2008-09-10T10:31:00.000-07:00

People say to me before that there is only black and white in this world. But I believe there will be times we find things are not just black and white. There is still gray element when the black and white mix together.

Some people think it is right to do so and some think that you are wrong to do so. Is there anything definite answer for it? Let me give an example of this.

A person who is poor but need to get money to cure sickness of his/her mother and it was not enough after all he/ she has done. Will it be wrong for him/ her to steal? Outsiders who don't understand or do not know anything about the situation might say he is wrong. But if you are that person...to save a person's life by stealing is totally not wrong. Will you think you as selfish? If I am that person, I probably would do anything I can to save my mother.

Whatever...I am bad in giving examples. So the main point is a person should somehow put himself in another person's situation before reacts. Not all people can think as you are. When something happens, there's always two sides stories. Listen to only one side is never enough.

Troubles come. Conflicts happen. That's what our life made out of. Without these spices, life will be monotonous. Who will be able to live on with that kind of life? Not that I say it's easy to settle conflicts but when conflicts happen...don't you think it involves both parties as well? That is what I mean about the gray element in our life. Conflicts will never settled until both parties learn to tolerate.

Ending with some suggestions: Sometimes putting yourself in other people's shoes and thinking the other way round is good too.

Missing you...

2008-08-25T01:05:00.000-07:00

Will we be able…?

If there is snow in the summer

Then I believe I will be able

To forget you forever

If stars shining brightly in the daylight

Your beautiful face and smile

Will be wiped off from this memory of mine

I would never want to erase you

From my life

I wish

To hold your hand once more

But you slip away

Like the sand falling within my hands

If there is sun at night

I will then know

You are gone

Out of my world

When there is flood in desert

I know we won’t be able

To be together again

Lovers

They stand strong

Looking into each other’s eyes

Searching for strength and warmth

I believe

We are able too to do so

Walking hand in hand

Till the eternity

Of our life…

Fin.

PyNiC's words:

I miss my muse...there are times I wanted to write so many things but I am lost.

Anyway, I wake up this morning and I know. That I am a lonely person, no close friends with me. Do my friends even know the real me? Perhaps they don't for I myself do not understand me. One lie covers another lies...that's what I have been doing. People think I am happy. Instead i am a lost one. Lost in the midst of darkness that I cannot find my way out. Now, once more I am lost. Lost foreverand die...that's what I will wish for now...

2008-08-21T12:07:00.001-07:00

Gemini

Perfect Partners:

Libra, Aquarius

Nearly Perfect Partners:

Aries, Leo

Not Your Destiny:

Virgo, Pisces

Comparison...

2008-08-21T00:10:00.000-07:00

English is an important language in the world. Using English, you can speak to almost everyone in this world...but somehow, not everyone in this world can speak well and certainly not singing well in English...let's make some comparisons between these three singers...

1. Shim Changmin (Max of TVXQ)

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his English not that bad...I still can understand...and he sounded cute ^^

2. Bi aka Rain

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ok....worst of three but using sexy voices will make fans melt away too...it's a very good try...

3. Se7en

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one of the best Korean singer in English songs...you practically can hear almost every words...totally my number 1 Korean singer in English songs...

Ok...I am not here to mock their English pronunciation or to laugh at them. I am one person who can't exactly speak well too but it's just something to share and it is nice to listen to their songs. Different people after have different kinds of ways to show their talents and skills. I certainly respect them *salutes*

Last words from me in this entry: Music is a kind of language that can relate us all together too...

Song for Mid August

2008-08-15T03:23:00.000-07:00

Maybe to some, you are not familiar and asking when did TVXQ sang this song??? well...originally by two awesome duos, Vibe and sang by 4men too, this song went with the title "Wish" (but some said it's Hope). Anyway, it's just feeling so good to have them sing this song (without Yunho though cos he's actually hurt at that time due to poisoning incident).

Mid of August and I am still in the state of unemployed, therefore I do need some "Wish" that I can get the job that I wanted and love right? Plus it's really really good vocals singing. Almost like in heaven.

Before ending this entry, I wish you all enjoy and have faith in yourself. I wish all the best for those facing trials and real exams soon. No matter what and where, always remember PyNiC will be there for you...

Ending this entry with love, till I update again...and I think it will be soon...

Weird things do happen...

2008-08-13T02:12:00.000-07:00

Weird things do happen at times...well...a silly dream appeared this morning and I was surprised that I heard him saying so to me...let me start the story...

Once upon a time...ok, I better cut the crap!

hmm...the story starts with in a shop where we were volunteers ( i believe so...). I went to buy food and drinks (ok...I am a glutton).

There were a lot of people in this shop where we were actually doing jumbo sales and I remembered it's at night. All kinds of people were there.

We went to a room where we could rest, and there he sat. Directly opposite me. I remembered i blushed as he watches me. We talked and I asked him something that was weird.

"As a singer, how would you hide your realtionship from us? You must have been very good in hiding it."

And his reply shocked me even more...as he said casually...

"I do not need and want to hide my relationship from the world if I have one."

What even would made me even shocked was that it was from the mouth of MICKY PARK YOOCHUN!!! (but he's totally not in his now hairstyle but hairstyle during Winter SMtown 2006)

Probably to me, he's a playboy...more scandals will be involving him than real...but it seems that from his eyes, I can see it's his way to declare his deepest love to his loved one. Maybe it's a way of understanding between the Geminians...

I do wish him the best!

Las Vegas?

2008-08-01T00:31:00.000-07:00

Hi hi...yesterday was my last day of working as a Medicheck officer. Here i am now...jobless and broke so decided that since I am free now (while looking for jobs of cos!) I think it's time for me to change the song ^^v

To some, this song may be very familiar. I wouldn't need to say more right? Just listen and enjoy!

A natural musical instrument...

2008-07-26T05:38:00.000-07:00

Natural musical instrument is in our own body. Did you know what is that?

It's our voices...

I believe everyone will somehow captivated by someone's voices. To me, there are so many singers that catches my ears and heart. Simply can't resist it. Let me talk about korean singers' voices.

One of the unique voices I have heard is Kim Junsu of TVXQ. True that I seldom talk about him but his voice...I don't think there's anyone with a voice like him...it's sounds like an angel singing so beautifully and everytime when you hear it, you feel you are in peace and happy.

But on the other hand, another member in TVXQ, Kim Jaejoong can just make your heart pierce and sad that you can cry heartily. In his voice, you can sense sadness that you just wanted to hug him and comfort him. His voice is awesome too and i heard he was a tone-deaf God must have answered his prayers and i truly wish him all the best.

Park Yoochun of TVXQ has sexy voice. It can make your heart melts and it makes you feel like a woman, wanting to be loved by him. Sexy voice + piano skills = a killer/ Casanova for many girls (that includes me). One of the talented singers in music industry (learned piano by himself is just so cool). I believe another singer that fell into this category will be Tei. He is somehow so cool and singing love songs just out of expectation. He makes you feel you are truly blessed with his love.

Park Hyo Shin...the deep voice singer. With his voice, you can feel deep sadness yet calm. "Hwa shin" and "snow flower" are among the songs that shows his best quality of voices. It makes you wanted to cry but also given you hope. His voice is not that husky...just deep...

Brian of FTTS has awesome voice!!! He can sing high notes and also the low ones. It makes you feel peace and sexy. It brings you into the story of the song so well. The feelings in the songs are expressed so well that you may think he is the storyteller of his own sad love stories.

Shim Changmin, another TVXQ member can hit high notes that even not many women can sing so. Innocence is laced with his voice but of late, his voice has become manlier and yet it hinted of androgynous characters. A voice that can be a lady searching for love or a man losing his love. When he sang high notes, it makes you breathless and deeply in love.

The One and also Yoo Young Jin are the least known singer now. They are now mostly known as the music producers. The One...(i don't really know the real name) but both also has those manly voices that it can give you the feeling of warmth and protection. Not strange enough, I list Jung Yunho, leader of TVXQ in here for his voice is manly and poses to me a feeling of security.

When so many singers with good voices, I believe it's more important that a person have good ears to enjoy their voices, the natural musical instruments.

you realize it's time...

2008-07-21T07:41:00.000-07:00

Well...come to think of this, today I have made a decision that is to quit my job. Maybe to many people it seems rash and I might regret. But who cares now? I don't care because I believe that I made the correct decision. After all making this decision it's not that hard for me.

Once I broke down and cried, I knew it's not suitable for me. Even when I studied alone in Petaling Jaya, alone without any friends beside me, I went through strongly and brave. I did not actually complain so much or cried in front of my mother.

Anyway after the decision was made, the burden in my shoulder lessen...a lot...I am able to sleep so well in the night without nothing to worry anymore.

People beside me gives me different opinions on this. Most of them were surprised that I did so. Some gives encouragement and some showing disapproval. To them, at least I should maybe try to find another job first but what is the use to work in there when your mentality is being tortured that you started to have nightmares and restless nights everyday?

Maybe I will become a jobless and poor girl for quite some time but I believe that someday I can find a better and suitable job for myself. A month of work made me learn a lot of things and also make me see that working life is just not as simple as it seems. So for those who is still studying, do enjoy your study life. May God bless us all for searching our own happiness in our own way.

A song for a dog...

2008-07-18T06:35:00.000-07:00

well...since I have free time now, I think i will post two times ahaha...just wanted to share with you the song that is playing (probably) is sang by Linus' Blanket called 'Don't Call it Puppy Love". I got it from a fic that I read and I came to like this song. It's so cute...so let me share the lyrics with you now and you can sing along ^^

Don't Call It Puppy Love (credit: someone out there...I can't remember their names ^^;;;)

Don't Call It Puppy Love

I'm a puppy, you're a kitty

Don't you think it's a big tragedy

Feel like I'm in some language hell

We'll overcome our taste barrier

Remember I'm a yorkshire terrier

Picky yorky, mostly like you, dear

Let me share my doggybag with you

Can't you see my tail wagging for you

Don't call it puppy love

Let me share my doggybag with you

Can't you see my tail wagging for you

You'll never be gloomy again

We will be happy always

Tell me you won't call it puppy love

In case you don't know which is Yorkshire terrier...(though I like beagle and Siberian husky)

Credit: as tagged + PyNiC

You never know...

2008-07-18T05:08:00.000-07:00

ahem...i believe it's been quite a long time since I updated my blog. Sorry guys! (though I know not much people will read now cos everyone's busy and I seldom show my link of my blog to people). Any how, I have made some small (or big or whatever) discovery.

Let's list down shall we?
1. People who don't find job that fast will get the job that they love (unless they are being offered thousands of jobs that they can choose!)

2. In work life, grades doesn't seem important anymore (that's really true...)

3. Communication skill is the important thing to survive in this world...(I can't believe my communication skill is so poor that not much people likes me)

4. Stress can make a person fat or slim though eat a lot...

5. Put a distance between your colleagues and you...who knows he/ she might back stabbing you? Trust people too easily might make you easily hurt too...

That's the part from work...How about daily life (my life is all about entertainment)
1. In this era, the beauties are not the women but the men...asking for examples?

How about these two?hehe...(credits as tagged + PyNiC)

2. South Korea is blessed with people with good voices~~~ah~~~envy...

3. Pairing among group members in a band is so popular than single members XDDD

4. South Korean artistes getting more and more famous each year

5. Just don't believe in what you hear and see...Life is a reality after all...

2008-07-05T08:13:00.000-07:00

Recently I have read article "The Science of Love" in CLEO and i found that it's actually quite true too...It's amazes me XDDD do go and read it...

Today's topic for me will be...how to make a person lose interest on you (not that I have one person interested in me...it's just something random ^^)

A person to lose interest on you?
1. Make yourself as unattractive as possible (e.g. wear something that totally not your style) because our physical outlook will leave as first impression by most people.
2. Language after is a way of communication so to make a person don't like you, speak rudely and if want, some vulgar words will do XDDDD
3. Act coldly...you must have that aura around you showing that you are cold (I think I do have that which is why not many people likes me)
4. Boastful on something you don't even know...which is more like "showing off" that you are the cleverest of them all...
5. If not, you can act as stupid as you can or probably as bitchy as you can. (I do hate bitchy people...) sarcastic people did make people hate you too!!!

Well...so far these five will do you great! You can go and try...i believe it will work...

well...evidence from experiments? I never did it but still not many people likes me so there's no need for me to try it TT_TT anyway...it's just something to talk about~~~

some knowledge are priceless...

2008-06-19T02:15:00.000-07:00

Get a good job? well...there's always tips on how to get good jobs popping out here and there but do they really work? Or they are just something we can only see but can't be practiced? or maybe they don't even can be used? (means it's actually lousy tips)

Given tips by those who went for interviews...the experienced? so do they give the right advice or probably you don't get it work the way you wish? well...or maybe it's just not your luck if you don't get a job?

hmm...personal thoughts once again (after all, it's my blog ne?) Knowledge from me for interviewees...

1. If you go for interview, at least know what you want to do with your life and also your courses...the reasons you choose to study it, etc. etc.

2. do read about company's profile...or at least, please know a few facts of the company (although you might forgotten about it when you met interviewer, I did that everytime)

3. dress code...please do wear appropriate clothes...always bring along a blazer or coat along (in case it's too cold) I almost die from cold after the interview in PwC...

4. make eye contact but do not stare (staring is rude)

5. politeness is a must...(though i am not sure if I am polite enough for them)

6. answer whatever the interviewer wants...(though your mind blank, just temberang already...I always do that...probably that's why I don't really get my dream job)

7. learn to speak well...impress them...but don't till you make yourself looking stupid please! don't know means don't know!

8. be yourself...or better, learn how to tell little white lies (e.g. even not interested in the course you studying, say or at least you make yourself look interested in it)

Something that cheers me up...

2008-06-02T11:13:00.000-07:00

ahem...i found something funny XDDDD and decided to post it here...(posted in GW too XDDD)

credit:drtyndale @ YT

I like that song actually (though don't know what he is singing but it's really upbeat!) but there's one time that this song is so famousand TV had it played for a few times in a day o.0...it has annoyed me so much...but somehow it is really a good upbeat and cheerful song XDDD and now it has come back to me again with...

Tohoshinki's version....o.0

credit: eddieiz @ YT + PyNiC @ GW

p/s: i totally love the sound that Chunnie made after making wrong guess....=p too adorable!!! btw...i just discovered that this song famous in Korea too ^^v
go to..Wikipedia Tunak Tunak Tun for more info about it...hehe...

Two identities and a person...

2008-05-30T02:17:00.000-07:00

Junki...he never stops to make me mesmerize...

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and this song is superb!

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never I imagine to fall in love at the 1st sight...the moment my mum showed newspaper to me...I mesmerized by his beauty...I thought I have become a bisexual then (cos I like TVXQ then too haha)...can't imagine I been loving him for so long...sigh but when can I get to meet him? anyway, I do believe it's not the boy-girl type of love but just admiration and respect I have for him...*salutes* A person like him deserve a good wife...*pray for him to have good wifey ^^*

To the world of paradise...

2008-05-26T02:03:00.000-07:00

Hehe...hi guys...I am back with new post! XDDD
actually went to holiday for a few days...miss me?
hmm...I don't even feel like coming back after the trip (20 May-22 May)...world of paradise...ah~~~
I went to Pulau Redang (can't imagine i finally went there after 3 years saying it TT_TT)
The place is just awesome...beautiful...can't describe it...i think it's a good place for honeymoon and recreation...^^
ah...gtg...no time to actually write the details XDDD so bye for now...

Boyfriend…A bundle of happiness or just a burden and problem?

2008-05-13T13:09:00.000-07:00

Boyfriend…A bundle of happiness or just a burden and problem?

I don’t really know. After all, people do have their own opinions about this. To me, having one and not having one is a problem too. My mother has started to nag me about getting one. Gosh…I am just 23 now (not 33 year old *rolls eyes*). In fact, I think it’s time for me to enjoy my single life after my university life (I want to go travel TT_TT)

But seeing others having boyfriends, caring them and love them, my heart does hurt too (ouch!). To be able to have someone to love you and cherish you (of course, your family and friends do too but I don’t think the feelings are the same, right?), I think it is one of the remedy to all the sicknesses and also it is anti-aging (believe me, love can make you younger and indeed, prettier too). I shall list down the pros and cons of having boyfriend then.

Boyfriend…hmmm…let me see

Pros

With a boyfriend, you can spend your time wisely, such as going to travel together, watch movies, study together, (if you have clever one, ask him help you to do assignments XDD) etc.
Boyfriend willing to spend time to know your friends and join in some parties organized by your friends.
With a boyfriend, you get to have more presents (hurray!).
With a boyfriend, you get to cuddle and hug them, leaning on them when you are sad, and ears to listen to your problems (aww~~~).
Loyal boyfriend is just loyal...only you are in his heart forever. Looking after you when you are sick. Helping you when you are down. Doing the best to comfort you.
They give you money to spend (lucky you!)
They give you nice surprises (e.g. a candle light dinner on the beach).
They want to be with you for the rest of their life.(^__^)

Cons

1 But with a boyfriend, no time for friends, studies been neglected, and some will even run away from home.

2 With a boyfriend however, you might also be controlled by them. Time is limited when you went out with friends.

3 Totally less presents for those stingy ones. Or they might just grumble after you asking for the presents and buying it. Some even worse, asking money back for the present *dead*

4 Boyfriends can just kill you by being clueless about their mistakes and insensitive about your feelings and thinking. Chauvinists do kill girls with their insensitivity and their straight minds (blah…I hate them).

5 No more looking (and drooling) at those hot sexy guys. No flirting is allowed! To them, flirting is normal. They can even have friendship, relationship (whatever ships or even sampans) with the girls. They might keep a few girls besides you at the same time.

6 They took your money to spend (what the…)

7 Really good surprises, girl (e.g. him with a girl lying naked in your bed or maybe just a girl’s bra in the car?)

8 Yeah right. They get what they want and out they go from your life (o.0).

So far, that’s what I gather…hmm…pros and cons. There are equal numbers so I guess…just let the fate decide for me. As for now, I will just listen to TVXQ’s sweet sentimental ballad and let them bring me to wonderland of dreams. Peace everyone…

been tagged~~~

2008-05-13T01:21:00.000-07:00

1. Who is your all-time inspiration?
Parents i think...they work hard just to make us be a good person ^^

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island,who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
Blog friends...hmm..hard to say...maybe Rayi cos she is our umma, nini cos she is my cute dongsaeng and Snowy cos she knows spells XDDD and bring us back to mainland...

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
So many places...hmmm...S.Korea and then Europe...I wanna go to Athens and Alaska...Hokkaido is a very nice place too ^^

4. Do you believe in true love?
Think so...bad hard to find XD

5.If you win $ 1 Million, what would you do?
hmm...open a recording company with a few friends? it's US Dollar right? cool~~~

6. If you meet someone that you love, would u confess to him/her?
I never confess before...too shy maybe...

7. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Gorgeous...funny...my umma? kekee

8. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Well, a long list ...hmmm...
respect and love my family, caring and loves me...can give me the sense of security, pet lover ^^v
Physically, taller than me (about 178cm?very tall actually cos I am just about 160cm...)...a bit muscular (like Yunnie? ahaha)

9. Which type of person you hate the most?
judgmental, backstabs people, can't keep secret...i totally hate people who touches my things without my permission XP

10. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out or would you rather they keep it to themselves?
Keep it!
11. What do you think is the most important in life?
Enjoy till the last! Love is...to the family, people that cares about you and so on...

13. If you have a chance. Which part of your character would you change?
Laziness and my nonsociable behaviour...and also the cold expression i gave to others...i wanna be more independent too

14. What would you do if you have an off day
Sleep...maybe spend time with family and also go to the beach (^v^)

15. What is the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
my dream of getting married without me knowing it...

16. How do you feel now?
Blur....my connection very slow...but still relaxed ...i finally finish my uni life!

17. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Maybe to have a good life from this moment onwards...

18. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
I am not sure...maybe myself?

19. What is your ambition?
Let's say I wanna be granddaughter of LSM ahaha...ambition ...hmm...a good daughter, wife and mother? XDDD
well...to me, family is foundation of happiness ^__^

20.If you could be anybody for a day, who would it be? Why?
Be the person to create a holiday and declaring it as "Stars' World Day"...let the stars to rest for a day and respect what they have give to us...entertainment ^^

At last..I'm tagging..
Nini
Fiona
Venus
My blog friends are really limit

T_T

2008-05-09T11:08:00.000-07:00

work work work...don't you know it is really boring! mum started to nag me again...find job, go interview etc. Can't i rest for at least a month before going work? *pout* it's unfair for me too...

and i had a bad dream today TT_TT
it's about...I getting married without me knowing it!
It was a surprise!I was wearing bridal gown and the guy...i don't know which one...but my heart beats wildly cos i am scared...who the heck is he??? TT_TT
Worse, it was a mass wedding...
I don't to marry unknown man...o.0 no way!!!
but dreams do not happen ne? thank god for that!!! (^v^)

Writing nonsense again

2008-04-18T21:17:00.000-07:00

I hope...

when you are happy,

don't think of me

but come to me

when you are sad

Seeing you

Walking away with her

Smiling so happily

makes me happy too

It is all a lie

Just a lie

Trying to calm myself

To not to cry

Watching you two

walking hand in hand

My heart hurts

breaks into pieces

I told you

Happy moments

Don't think of me

If you are sad

I will borrow my shoulder

for you to cry upon

You scream

She shouts

You run away

Feeling all beaten up

You came to me

Crying all the way

I can only watch

With my heart shatter into pieces

You two make up

Smiling once again

waving at me

and say goodbye

I believe...

the only person

who is hurt deeply

is me...

When you are happy

don't think of me

But a shoulder is there

for you to cry on

if you are sad

I can only say

I wish for your happiness

Although my heart hurts

Without you by my side...

No matter what

I will be here

Just for you

and only you...

p/s: one sided love story always made me sad....waaa~~~not that I been through it...but some stories I have heard makes me feel so sad...poor him/her...*sigh*

Happy Birthday, darling!!!

2008-04-16T23:24:00.000-07:00

one of my stupidest and craziest day in my life....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DARLING JUNKI!!! *muakss~~~*<3
April 17th v^^v

p/s:i fell down yesterday...and hurt my knees and scratched my face....ugly become uglier...and also knocked my head...*become stupider too* T T_TT

God's Masterpiece...

2008-04-09T17:20:00.000-07:00

Well..actually I am bored now ahaha...and browsed through the websites, I saw a picture of God's masterpiece. Come to think of that, he is really really beautiful that I wonder if he's an angel XD...

And funny thing is that...he's younger than me and a singer XD...it's Kim Jaejoong of TVXQ that I am talking about!

A masterpiece indeed *felt envious at his beauty*

Another masterpiece of God is Lee Junki...he's pretty too o.0 *more jealous*

gah!!! I want to be as beautiful as them TT_TT

but still God makes me quite perfect too *well functioning body maybe except my eyes got bit problem ahaha* v ^__^ v

opps almost forgot: pics credit...as tagged +ajumma @ LJ for Jae's pics
Junki's pics from www.spris.com ^^

Hero by Mariah Carey

2008-04-05T02:10:00.000-07:00

Hero by Mariah Carey

There's a hero If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time, you'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

PyNiC's words: 5 years has came and you left me in this world. But i won't forget you as long as I live, my father...
To my father who is in heaven...thank you for bringing me into this world. I love you, father, forever.
R.I.P. (27 December 1943(real)/2 January 1944 (registered)-30 April 2003)

Somewhere...there's a hero lies in me for me to stay strong...

Doomed...that management is going to hell...

2008-03-31T04:53:00.000-07:00

*ahem* time for me to say a few words after all the dramas during the weekend...It can be counted as one of the worst weekends i ever had all my life. Let me get this straight...we supposed to feel happy and enthusiatics as we have count down for this day (30 March 2008) but it turned to be a shock. All these happened when...

1st incident: Ticketing

Though we knew FT Island is new in Malaysia, we did not expect this to happen after all. We preordered our tickets to go to their concert. It was the cheapest (RM103) but still it showed that we supported them right?

After about a month, CI ENTERTAINMENT has came out with a new PLAN!!! I mean...what the heck! the plan was buy one free one....we were so angry by what they did and thus, we did emailed them and UNFORTUNATELY...they DID NOT REPLY us!!! Till now!!! After 30 March, and we still did not receive any explanation on that!

2nd incident: before FT Island autograph session

Reaching at about 12pm at Cineleisure, (i seriously don't understand why they made the autograph session indoor), we went to have our lunch. By then, we could see many fans have been standing there, waiting for them. And the stage is actually not yet up!!! My roomies and I were actually shocked on how the CI Entertainment has done their job. After we took our lunch, we were back to the stage site and still the stage was not prepared. We actually could not see the booth which did not even put up a label for us to know that it was there. Eventually we saw it...
My roomie, J wanted to buy their album but unfortunately once again we've been told that the album were fully booked and we need to write our names in the waiting list!!! I was horrified by the fact that they actually didn't sell it or at least spare some albums for those who wanted to buy it before the autograph session. By the way, I hate the look of the people at the booth. Such a snobbish faces shown to the fans.

3rd incident: FT Island autograph session

The DJ who hosted this seemed too quiet. I mean...We were told that Minhwan (youngest member) was sick T_T but still I couldn't figure out why must we wait for 3 hours!!! gosh...and the DJ actually didn't say anything. The PA system is sucks...totally sucks!!! I can't believe it...
And when they arrived, it seems that Minhwan was very lively and energetic (I don't feel he's sick at all)...Hongki didn't seem to be happy though. The whole session was terrible (Thank god I am at upstairs).

When their fave artists came, the fans would actually rushed towards them to take photos and even just took a glimpse of them. Not really a big deal right? But the security guards pushed the fans back. From my perspective, it was quite harsh. In the meantime, the staffs were shouting. From what other fans said, they were actually quite harsh!!! I totally shocked about it. Not only the stage so bad, the PA system bad...the local management people is totally worst of them all!!! I think they should go take some courses or learn more. They will soon bankrupt! Totally worst of all managements! I left Cineleisure although they not yet signed finish. What a waste of an afternoon...

From what i heard from my friend, they did not even signed finish for the fans and some only got one or two signatures >.< *double thumbs down for the local management, CI Entertainment* I think they did the worst job and made it into the history in Malaysia...

4th incident: The concert

HAH! best part of all the drama! THE CONCERT WAS CANCELLED! and we get to know it last minute. Thank god we stayed near or else...but we really pitied those oversea fans! T_T poor them... it was last minute and all the fans there were just standing and waiting. I heard some of them waited till late at night >__< I can't believe it!!! Until now, we didn't receive any news on the refund or delay of the concert. The reason they gave is management problem. Who would actually wanted to work with CI Entertainment when their service is so so bad...I don't think they work well on their PR skills!!!

Conclusion--> CI ENTERTAINMENT IS DOOMED!!!

When the cherryblossom colors flutter...

2008-03-24T10:16:00.000-07:00

When the cherryblossom colors flutter
Lyrics: Kawae Minako Translation: Jonathan Wu

When the cherryblossom colors flutter, I’m alone
Standing exhausted, I can’t cut off these feelings bottled up inside

When the color of new leaves shake, feelings overflow
I lost sight of everything and drifted towards you

The trees around us told us in silence
That we would both see:
People don’t have to be limited to one place

When the withering leaves change color, I am next to you
And as the passing days fade, our love changes

But please, let these trees
Protect these feelings
Silently rustling your leaves above us,
Just one more time..

Before long, the seasons will pass
And we will be taken somewhere else
But right now, there’s only one thing I know
Embrace me, silently

Covered by the snow, the feelings get lost
The footprints vanish, sounds disappear in vain
But please, let these trees
Protect these feelings
So that, frozen in eternity
We may live on here

The trees around us told us in silence
That we would both see:
People don’t have to be limited to one place

When the cherryblossom colors flutter, I’m alone
Savoring my thoughts of you

A song that has touches my heart...Sakurairo Maukoro by Mika Nakashima...enjoy the video ^^

http://youtube.com/watch?v=8CUMjeD5uUA

A Path...

2008-03-20T23:44:00.000-07:00

Life is a path...a path that is decided by us, with the choices that we have made.
There are times we regret on which path that we have chosen. I do too but still, I walk on. It seems that the more I walk, the darker the road has become. I never wish my life to be this way at all. Though this may seems very sad and poor, I will refuse...refuse to give up on my life yet. I am still young (not even 30) and now saying life is bad etc etc will seem to make me older and worse, more depressed.

People with many good wishes for their life to be better are not to be said as greedy. In reality, when we said one is greedy for wishing many good things happen in his/her life though the life is good enough...why don't we look at ourselves? Don't we wish for the same thing too? I don't really believe that people do not wish for better things and just be thankful to what they have. People somehow won't get satisfied so easily. No one person will feel so.

To think life is not good enough, and choose a way to make it better is more realistic. I believe in finding ways to make life better. I still looking for ways to make mine better. Though I don't actually found it, I believe someday my life will become in order. But hey, if in life, there's no ups and downs...it's not life at all! So i will just look for better ways to improve my life as well as go through the obstacles bravely. Can't turn back once you chose this path but to improve it.

Only a sentence: when the going gets tough, the tough gets going!